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I am a young newlywed with a wonderful child who is the best thing that could have happened to me. My husband and I love each other, but I primarily married for the benefit of our young daughter that we had before the marriage. I realize now this was a huge mistake; I have recently caught him having an affair. This is not the first one and most likely won't be the last. Now I feel trapped. I have no intentions of leaving him, because my daughter means too much to me to destroy her world, so I try to make the best of the situation. I know that he loves me, regardless of what happened, and that combined with our daughter is enough to convince me to stay for now.

The problem I am having is that we have these insane fights over things that I do not understand. He will blow little things out of proportion, like when I have plans to spend the evening with girlfriends (this usually primarily causes us to fight, even though when he has plans I say nothing), and then claims that I am the one starting the fight and not him. He is oblivious to ever being mean or starting these fights, so when I get mad in turn he thinks I am being the ridiculous one. It's like we are in different universes, and this leads to a huge breakdown in communication and we eventually just stop talking about it. He forgets about it an hour later and is fine, and I in turn am angrier than ever. It brings up all the emotions in me that I have held onto from the recent past, which primarily screams "you need to leave this marriage, it's not healthy and not normal."

Fortunately, I tend to get over things easily so after a day or two I can go back to my normal life, until it happens again a week later, and then again and again. He doesn't get it, he never gets it. He is very unemotional and it never occurs to him that what he says is hurtful and often out of proportion to the situation. When I bring this up he gets angry and claims that he cares deeply. I have said everything I could ever say to him, in every combination, to try to get him to understand, and he doesn't. I realized that I can never make him understand, so I have for the most part stopped trying, unless the argument makes me angry enough to retaliate.

So I guess my question to you is, where do I go from here? I know you can't answer this, as only I can decide what path my life can take, but I am so inexperienced in the married world that I have no idea what to do. This might even be normal married behavior -- I have very few married friends and my parents were not the best role models, so for all I know this is what every married couple does. I feel like I am recreating my parents' marriage even though I grew up promising myself I would never stay if I didn't feel like I was being treated fairly. But maybe this is just what people do.

Since marriages are so glamorized by TV, I have no idea what to expect. Like I said, I won't leave because of my child. He never has and never would hit me so I am in no danger by staying, and I am happy most of the time. I am resentful that he convinced me to marry him even though he was going to continue his indiscretions, but now that we signed that paper there is nothing I can do about that. I just want to know how to make it better.

I don't want to live my life this way and even though I tell him that, and threaten to leave, it does not impress on him the severity of his behavior's impact. He turns it around on me, that I am the overly sensitive one (and believe me, I am not). I am the breadwinner and would be just fine financially as a single mother; I just want to exhaust other options before resorting to that. He cares deeply about his daughter, and is a more committed father then most, so I refuse to tear that apart. Do you have any advice besides therapy? Because we tried that route before the wedding when I found out about the other woman, but he continued it anyway and convinced me he had stopped. He just figured out how to lie and pretend better.

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We started experimenting with other couples a few years ago. The two of us never have sex anymore with each other. The kids are well. The mood around the house is positive most of the time.